i'll start off by talking about the radio 'station'. this is something that only in my wildest dreams would i imagine happening. right now i am going to illinois central college majoring in mass communication. my dream job is to be a radio deejay on an alternative christian radio station, eventually owning my own radio station. i honestly did not expect to even come close to my dream, but God had other plans in mind.
mike, a guy i met in one of my classes at icc, came up to me this semester at school and asked if i would be interested in being a dj for an internet radio that he had been researching and wanted to get started. "uh. of course!" so the Lord, brought a group of people together and we are starting this. its really happening. mike is the talker. :) he will be doing a "talk show". there are four of us deejays so far. and just. i dont know! im psyched. hopefully this will all come together and be glorified.
now for something a bit more different.
what is up with churches these days? i used to go to church every sunday, same old thing. i would get up dreading to go and drag myself to the pew we sat at every sunday. but i eventually woke up. i wasnt getting anywhere. heres something i actually wrote while i was in church disgusted with how i had gotten to where i was then. some days were better than this one for sure, i just tend to build and build until i let it all go at once. :)
Dead Men Walking
stare blankly forward
and keep on walking
with your fake smile
plastered on your zombie face
read the words
from memorization
not from your heart
get upset over change
that gets in the way
of going through the motions
your fire is dimming
to a crackle
not too far from a smoke
you think of yourself
as righteous
and judge someone that different
scowl at the audacious
and frown upon the open-minded young
you oppress me.
you show me what not to be.
im letting go of you.
and doing whats best for me.
