broken again.

i suppose im not very good at expressing my emotions through words, except for poetry. it has always been the easiest thing for me to say what im feeling or the way i hurt because of those around me. im very empathetic. i put myself in others places and feel pain the way they feel pain and celebrate in joy because they are happy.
at the beginning of the year, i found out my sister was pregnant. it was even better news because it meant that she wouldnt have to be deployed to iraq later that year. however, her husband was still called to go. it was bittersweet knowing she could stay, but he couldnt. well, he's been gone for a couple of months and they talked as much as they could. he came back for his two week leave just a couple of weeks ago. during his second week home, his first daughter was born. he was immediately in love with her. i couldnt help but smile when i saw them all together. these are the people that deserve to be happy. but, this last tuesday we were all brought back to reality when he had to leave for iraq again. it was heartbreaking to see them hug each other goodbye and his last kiss for his daughter.
so i wrote this poem from my sister's perspective.


dont leave me again.
my heart cant take it.
dont decieve me again,
that i can make it.
dont say goodbye,
just see you soon.
watch over my heart,
ive left it with you.

stop walking away,
my knees are shaking.
stop talking your way,
through excuses im making.
stop smiling at me,
i can see right through.
watch over my heart,
ive left it with you.

ill wish time to move faster.
and our memories to slow down.
ill live this life,
even without you around.
remember i love you.
be careful, see you soon.
look over my heart,
ive left it with you.