:To my husband

So, I spose I'm abnormal. It's okay though, I've come to terms with this news. I was never the little girl constantly thinking of her wedding day, I always got excited about the marriage. Throughout my life I've always dreamed of what it would be like to married to someone you love with all of yourself. To share this strong love and be able to share your love for
God. I'm not saying that I had a perfect idea of marriage. I know there is struggle and hurt along with the comforting and joy. But, I think the image of marriage is very different now from what I imagined when I was younger. There is no humility. There is no sharing. You live in the same house with someone you don't even know. Love itself is distorted.

No one knows how I long for you
How I'm trying to stay strong for you
Sometimes I don't know why I pray for you,
That you would also stay true for me
How easy the alternative would be
Life would be so simple and carefree
But empty without your love eternally

Sometimes, I wonder why I chose the path I did. It's not easy at times...


I want someone to kiss my forehead
and make me blush
To tell me goodnight
And when he holds me in his arms
I melt right there
Waiting for the world to start to turn again
I long for a love so divine
A love so unexchangable, unforgettable
I want the Lord to love it too.
Every kiss will make me catch my breath
Because I. cant. breathe.
I'm waiting for my heart to explode
My hands to shake
And my knees to be weak
I long for my understanding, humble husband
And I'll be waiting
Until he comes
and until then.

So, what if unexchangable isnt a word...who says you have to use real words in poetry? :)

I love you
used to mean
something.
Now, its turned
into an everyday,
to anyone and anything
nothing.